http://cdn4.libsyn.com/mb/tmbs-060614-smile_and_speak_good_english.mp3?nvb=20090506153536&nva=20090507154536&t=00ad66a7c21b9f1f372d0

i long time nv hear dis shit LOL.

李圣杰 - 擦肩而过
好歌收藏 放飞心情

我爱着谁
爱到我有点醉
告诉我你是谁
能够把我让我变不对
你不会累
但我却爱你爱得好累
从没有为了谁
不顾安危 付出一切
站在这平衡点
我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见
只能够靠感觉
他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说 我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过

SERIOUSLY. IS UPSTAIRS PLAYING SOME PRANKS WIF ME.

nb pua cb.

i m having mood swings and i hate it.

lost. jus lost.

y do i keep smiling to myself. i m so goin to get muscle cramps soon.

damn, very very sam pat.

ALL YOUR FAULT LA. XD.

I M NO PRESIDENT.

NOR SOME FILTHY RICH MILLIONAIRE.

DUN HAF TO STALK ME ONE, LYK GO ASKING WHERE M I.

WAN TO GO OUT, U CANT B EXPECTING ME TO MAKE THE DECISIONS FOR U RIGHT?

DECIDE TIME AND PLACE ONLI WAD.

AND I M NO BIG STAR. DUN NEED TO CHASE ME ONE.

PLS LEH, I M GOIN IN ARMY LIAO HOW BOUT NXT TIME U ASK ME OUT I TELL U I M IN CAMP?

I M VERY HOMELY ONE I DUN MIND STAYING HOME ALL DAY ONE.

LAST MTH ALREIDI, HOW BOUT ASKING ME STH DIFF INSTEAD OF ASKING ME THE SAME QUESTION ALL THE TIME.

i m doin things as though i m goin to die. seriously i dunno y.

i learnt or rather it could b i m still learning to appreciate the things around me more.

lyk mum, i m goin to her work place more frequently nt bcos her workplace is near mine but jus wan to c her lo. c wad she is doin, to hold the family and wad she is doin to support the somehow worthless son of hers. Dun luff but i tink i m getting her a gift on mother's day probably the " 意难忘" cd or sth. i haven bought her gifts for lyk in yrs.

Dad onli said one tink, no more playing liao ah. man liao hor.

try reminding me tt i m goin to shoulder the responsibility of supporting the whole family.

and, m i trying too hard to please everybody?.

seriously wad mess haf i gt myself into.

counting down...

watched taken yesterday.



liam neeson is damn zai in the show. dis show is lyk james bond, but wif superb storyline and most imptly some morals in the story itself.

overall dis show is great.

LAST PERSON

1. You hung out with: valerie.

2. You texted: felicia

3. you were in a car with: xing jie.

4. Went to the movies with: jia fang.

5. Person you went to shop with: cant rmb

6. You talked on the phone: valerie.

7. Made you laugh: i tink i made myself luff

8. You hugged: i tink mum.


ANSWER TRUTHFULLY

1. Sun or moon: Moon

2. Winter or fall: Winter

3. Left or right: Right.

4. Sunny or rainy: Sunny.

5. Where do you live: Havelock

6. Club or pub: Pub.

7. Are there 1 or 2 people who you can always trust and rely on: Yeah.

8. Do you want to get married: of cos.

9. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it: none.

10. What time is it: 12:36pm

11. Are you afraid of commitment: nt realli.

12. What is your greatest hope/wish: happiness.

13. Do you cook: Yes.

14. Current mood: I M SO BORED. AND SIAN ABT MY HONG ZHONG.


IN THE LAST 48 HOURS HAVE YOU

1. Kissed someone: no.

2. Sang: ya

3. Listened to music: ya

4. Danced: No

5. Cried: No

6. Liked someone you can't: yes.


22 FIRSTS

1. Who was your first prom date: bunch of idiotic guys who turned out to b my buddies.

2. Who was your first roommate: None.

3. What alcoholic beverage did you drink when you got drunk the first time: nv gt drunk b4

5. What was your first car: NA

6. When did you go to your first funeral and viewing: i tink sec 3. my 5th uncle's funeral.

8. Who was your first grade teacher: Huang Lao shi i tink

9. Where did you go on your first ride on an airplane: I NV RIDE A PLANE B4. seriously.

10. When you snuck out of your house for the first time, who was it with: Wen jia.

11. Who was your first best friend: cant rmb.

12. Who is your best friend: so many.

13. Where was your first sleepover: my cousin's place

14. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day: mus b the king.

15. Who's wedding were you in the first time you were a bridesmaid or groomsman: Cousin.

16. What's the first thing you did when you got up this morning: check phone.

19. First tattoo or piercing: None

20. First celebrity crush: Evelyn Tan haha. she cai wad.

22. First crush: Wen Jia. a neighbour. but she was 4 yrs older. :x

my time jus ran out.

seriously gone.

many things.

and yet i realli hate to put them down, no choice, government dua wad.

bye everything and hello ns.

i came across a saying yesterday.

"Always keep your words soft and tender, cos u may haf to eat them someday."

how true.

random stuff:

i always hated loyalty issues.

let's do a proper update. i notice i haf been writing quizes for the last few posts.

i m finally sick. in lyk dunno how many donkey yrs gdness. having the fever now
and god mum jus gif me 红中, aka shit loads of work to do. which i m suppose to clear by tml. gdness. but at least after 2 mths of rotting around, i haf found some proper job around here and there. gd news later haha. but den and again, wtf is wrong wif me getting sick now. sian and i cant skip work la AND I M SLPING IN THE LIVING ROOM AGAIN TODAY WHICH SERIOUSLY HELPS ALOT.

thx zariel for the concern. i m fine. and i slpt ok, although keep waking up. and i haf been having slping problems of late. wonder is i tink too much or wad.

decision: i m still goin to wait. i guess.

ah lai always gt things for me to do.

1)Are you really ready for 111 questions?
- duh if nt type wad sai

2) Was your last real relationship a mistake?
- ya. my fault i guess.

*No.3 is missing...*

4) Who did you last say “I love you” to?
- my mother i tink lol

5) Do you regret it?
- SIAO, SO FILLIAL REGRET WAD SHIT.

6) Have you ever been depressed?
- Nt realli

8) Are you a boy or girl?
- how bout transformers. boy la.

9) What is your relationship status?
- single

10) How do you want to die?
- leave it to fate yo

11) What did you last eat?
- Prawn noodles.

12) Play any sports?
- finger training count?

13) Do you bite your nails ?
- no?

14) When was your last physical fight?
- yrs back?

15) Do you have an attitude?
- very xl one.

16) Do you like someone?
- ya.

17) What is your real name?
- Huang Jing Quan

19) Are you gonna get high later ?
- Y cant i get low since i m nt slping yet

20) Do you hate anyone at the moment?
- mayb

21) Do you miss someone?
- YES.

22) Twirl or cut your spaghetti?
- i jus take onli

23) Do you tan a lot?
- cant get tanned.

24) Have any pets?
- nope

25) How exactly are you feeling?
- moonstruck. hahahaha.

26) Ever eaten food in a car while someone or yourself is driving?
- duh

27) Ever made out in the bathroom?
- er..

28) Would you take any of your exes back?
- probably nt.

29) Are you scared of spiders?
- no.

30) Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
- mayb

31) Do you regret anything from your past?
- nt doin anitink for my dear grandmother when she was alive.

32) What are your plans for this weekend?
- went out. and there i was out

33) Do you want to have kids?
- of cos. cycle of nature.

34) Did you ever kiss someone whose name starts with an M?
- dis is stupid

35) Do you type fast?
- so so

36) Do you have piercings?
- no.

37) Want any more?
- no

38) Can you spell well?
- quite

39) Do you miss anyone from your past?
- everyone impt from the past.

40) What are you craving right now?
- sleep

41) Ever been to a bonfire party ?
- No?

43) Have you ever been on a horse?
- Nope?

44) Kissed someone in a pick up truck?
- and the wind blow right. but no.

45) Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
- ya

46) Have you ever been cheated on?
- nt realli

47) Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
- Ya

49) Would you live with someone without marrying them?
- no.

50) What should you be doing ?
- sleeping

51) What’s irritating you right now?
- losing slp over a girl. again. damn )(#(%*)(#*%

52) Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurt?
- it jus did.

53) Does somebody love you?
- lyk duh

54) What is your favorite colour?
- blue and white

55) Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
- ya

57) Do you have trust issues?
- no

60. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
- abnormal i tink. which father keep asking his son to fuck off.

62) Do you believe your most recent ex thinks about you?
- mayb.

63) Who was the last person you cried in front of?
- wah gdness i cant even rmb when did i last cried.

64) Do you give out second chances too easily?
- most of the times.

65) Is it easier to forgive or forget?
- Forgive

66) Is this year the best year of your life?
- soon i will no

67) What was your child hood nickname?
- botak.

68) Have you ever walked outside completely naked?
- sampat

70) Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
- yes. karma yo.

71) What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
- worrying for someone.

73) What is bothering you?
- someone

74) Have you ever been out of your province?
- i dun live in China pls.

75) Do you play the Wii?
- nope

76) Are you listening to music right now?
- noo

77) Do you like Chinese food?
- so so

78) Do you know your fathers b-day?
- 20th nov

79) Are you afraid of the dark?
- no

80) Is cheating ever okay?
- siam

81) Are you mean?
- very

82) Can you keep white shoes clean?
- no

84) Do you believe in true love?
- yes

88) Do you like the outside?
- kind of

89) Are you currently bored?
- DUH

90) Do you wanna get married?
- ya

91) Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?
- I STILL VERY SMALL MEH. U TINK IS FUNNY? gf exception

92) Are you hungry?
- abit

93) Have you ever made out for more than a half hour straight?
- care abt u

94) What makes you happy?
- many things

95) Would you change your name?
- i changed once

96) Ever been to Alaska?
- no

98) Do you watch the news?
- sometimes

99) What’ s your zodiac sign?
- snake

100) Do you like Subway?
- pay 7+ bucks to eat veggies u mus b freakin dumb

101) Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?
- yes for now.

103) Do you talk like your friends?
- no. dey tok lyk me lol.

105) Have you ever seen someone you knew & purposely avoided them
- sometimes?

106) Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?
- wah haf. i tink felicia is one of them lol

107) who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?
- erm jia fang?

108) Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
- ya

109) Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?
- jia fang oso ba. i guess.

110) Favorite lyrics right now?
- "..juliet marry me so tt u dun haf to b alone."

111) Can you count to one milllion?
- y bother

塞翁失马 焉知非福。

story goes. highlight urself. sth wrong wif the font colour leh

There is this old man who lived at the border of the northern frontier of China, raised horses for a living. One day his prized horse ran away into the nearby mountains. On hearing this the neighbours came to offer moral support to comfort him. He surprised them by not getting upset at all and said "Perhaps this may turn out to be a good thing".

Sure enough his prized horse return with a wild stallion and again news spread to the whole village and the neighbours came to congratulate him. This time the wise man replied "Perhaps this may not be such good luck after all".

The next day his only son tried to ride on the wild stallion but unfortunately was thrown off the horse and broke his leg. The neighbours again came to console him but he responded "Perhaps this may turn out to be a good thing".

Few months later a warlord came to town to enlist young able man for battle. The wise man's son did not qualify due to his handicap and almost all who went to the battle field did not return.

i tink i m such a goner.

top prize liao lo.

zz.

kope one haha

1. What do you do if you are in the bathroom with a beetle flying around?
Kill it.

2. What do you do if you hear a song you like playing on the radio when you are all alone in the room?
listen. and enjoy. sing if needed

3.You want to speak to your crush badly. What is your pick up line?
OI, can tok (smiles)

4. What do you do if all your friends hate a particular band that you love?
care abt them. most impt is i lyk.

5. What do you do when you trip and fall in front of many people?
wah sian so paiseh.

6. You forgot to do your multiple-choice question homework (the one whereby you have to choose 1 out of 4 options given to you as your answer) and your class starts in 5 minutes. What do you do?
chicken feet. nt a problem haha.

7. You have a bad breath and someone speaks to you. How do you react?
keep my mouth shut. show a hand sign of wait first. go do sth abt it.

8. You just finished gym and after shower, you drop your underpants on the wet floor and it got pretty wet. What do you do?
wear lo. LL suck thumb.

9. What do you do if a personality quiz says that you have a lousy personality as your result?
the creator mus b a loser lol.

10. Your friend gave you the worst gift you have ever received and asks: Do you like it? How do you react?
sincerity counts.

11.(continued from question 10) What are you really thinking secretly inside?
Still the same ans?

12/ A hot guy/girl keeps looking at you while you are on the bus. What are you secretly thinking inside?
wah cai.

cum gong video

在夜深人静的夜晚。
身边只闻得到蚊香的味道。
此时当我在写这篇短文时
虽是静坐在椅子上，
但内心是充满着复杂。

暴风雨有可能要来了。。。

another one.

TEN ARE YOU-S

1. Are you single: Yea
2. Are you happy: No
3. Are you bored: Yes
4. Are you fair: Yeah
5. Are you Italian: No
6. Are you intelligent: Quite
7. Are you honest: Quite
8. Are you nice: OF COS. SO MANY GD GUY CARDS.
9. Are you Irish: No
10. Are you Asian: Yeah

TEN FACTS
1. Full Name - Huang Jing Quan
2. Nicknames - Fat fuck
3. Birth place - Singapore
4. Hair color - Black. but gold now.
5. Natural hair style - Straight flat.
6. Eye Color - Dark Brown
7. Birth Date - 18 05 1989
9. Favorite colors - Blue
10. One place you’d like to visit - heaven.

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
1. Have you ever been in love - Yes
2. Do you believe in love at first sight – Mayb
3. Do you currently have a crush? – Tink so?
4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally - YES.
5. Have you ever broken someone’s heart - ya.
6. Have you ever had your heart broken - YES.
7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them – Many times.
8. Are you afraid of commitment – No
9. Who was the last person you hugged – Ms J
10. Who was the last person you said I love you to? Ms J oso.

TEN THIS OR THAT
1. Love or lust - Love?
2. Hard liquor or beer – Hard liquor
3. Cats or dogs - Dogs
4. A few best friends or any regular friends – A few best friends
5. Creamy or Crunchy – Creamy
6. Pencil or Pen – Pen
7. Wild night out or romantic night in - Romantic night in
8. Money or Happiness – Money. ask me y and i will tell u.
9. Night or day – Day
10. IM or phone - Phone

TEN HAVE YOU EVER
1. Been caught sneaking out – Yea
2. Seen a polar bear – In the zoo
3. Done something you regret – Yeah
4. Bungee jumped – Does sitting on the gmax count?
5. Eaten food that fell on the floor – Yeah
6. Finished an entire jaw breaker - simi lai.
7. Been caught naked - no la siao. i tink onli the dog has caught me. lol
8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back - Nope
9. Cried because you lost a pet – yes.
10. Wanted to disappear – ya

TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER
1. Smile or eyes - Smile
2. Light or dark hair – Anitink
3. Hugs or kisses - both can better
4. Shorter or taller - shorter.
5. Intelligence or attraction – lykwise both haf better
6. Topman or Zara – wah both oso so high maintenance
7. Funny or serious – Funny
8. Older or Younger - any.
9. Outgoing or quiet – Oso can la actually.
10. Sweet or Bad - oso can i guess.

TEN HAVE YOU-S
1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd - Ya.
2. Ever talked on the phone for longer than an hour – Ya
3. Ever tried walking on your hands – how is tt even possible when u r fat fuck.
4. Ever been to a rock concert – nope
5. Ever been on a cheerleading team – No
6. Ever been on a dance team – ya
7. Ever been on a sports team - No
8. Ever been in a drama play/production - ya
9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley? - mayb in the future.
10. Ever been in a rap video? - does rapping vulgarities count?

TEN LASTS
1. Last phone call you made - shld b to bitch.
2. Last person you hugged - ms j
3. Last person you hung out with - wen xiang
4. Last time you worked - mths back
5. Last person you talked to - Laopei
6. Last person you IM’d - bitch
7. Last person you texted - hui yu.
8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with – jiun jia.
9. Last person/thing you missed - i dun even wan to think abt it.
10. Last website visited - blogger.

i love quizes.

1. Were you smiling when you woke up this morning?
No. i was in a very foul mood.

2. When was the last time you met someone new?
hmmm. mayb one week ago?

3. When did you last eat pizza?
mths back

4. Do you drink beer?
i hate beer

5. Do you wash your own clothes?
No. Mrs Maria Mum Wee washes it.

6. Are you any good at poker?
Nt bad.

7. What do you want more than anything?
MY BIKE LICENSE.

8. Are you tired?
Yes.

9. Besides your bed, what is your favorite thing in your room?
My Bolster.

10. Pepsi or Coke?
None.

11. Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
Care abt them

12. Do you enjoy piercings and tattoos?
Nope

13. Taco Bell or McDonald's?
mac?

14. How many ex boyfriends/girlfriends do you have?
3?

15. Is your computer desktop or a laptop?
Lappie

16. How many friendster views do you have?
Care abt it.

17. Want to be a prince/princess?
for wad.

18. Do you believe dreams come true?
wif my hands. yes

19. Last song you heard?
Some jackass singing in channel 8's show

20. Last person that called you?
Yong zuan. asking me to go out.

21. Last person that msg-ed you ?
Hui Yu. =)

22. Anyone you've been thinking about alot lately?
Random ppl pops up in my mind though. gdness is tt sth wrong? =(

23. What was the last thing you ate?
sambal fried rice

24. What were you doing before this?
eating.

25. What is the closest item near you that is blue?
the ice lemon tea bottle.

26. Who was the last person that has been mean to you?
SOMEONE. seriously.

27. What was the last present you received?
many pinches from an idiot.

28. What is ur fav website?
demonoid.com

29. Whose house were you at last night?
mine.

30. What do you wear more, jeans or Hot pant?
jeans.

31. What is the last movie you watched?
Tink is mall cop.

32. Do you think you're fat?
i dun wish to tok abt it sigh.

33. Do you feel hungry?
nope guess nt. i jus ate dinner lo

34. Where's your favorite place to be?
Home. the place where all the magic happen.

34. Last place that someone scolded/screamed at you?
home. Mrs Wee was acting lyk a crazy woman

35. Were you sad?
Care abt u

36. What is your fav food?
i gt no freakin idea.

37. Who was the last person who asked you out?
Yong zuan

38. Will you make out with girls?
how m i suppose to ans this question

39. Are you happy with where you are?
ya. been able to live under a roof in a home is an achievement ok?

40. Do you believe that you can change someone?
Maybe

41. What are you going to do after you do this survey?
ROT LYK HELL.

ya i no i m goin to get kan again for posting dis picture up.

but ya. dis might jus b the last drawn picture i might b posting up.

at first wan to colour it but den and again forget it.

bye den.

and b4 i forget.

happy birthday again FENG ZI.

good guy card.

i haf been receiving dis card for a long time

y cant i change it to sth else.

dis card is jus...gd and bad.

look at me now and u will no y is it bad.

good guy card.

few days back yz came over to my place.

toked abt some things.

even though it was jokingly but we toked abt goin to each others' void decks eating each others' curry chickens.

i jus wonder, if our friendships are goin to last until the day we die.

i kind of wish for every of my gd buddies are able to accompany through my days, my marriage, the birth of my children, being their godparents.

i guess tt's oso sth to look forward to huh.

sth new to look forward to =D

mayb the rotting has gone on for too long?

and rather i was too focused on sth for too long.

tt when i decide to put down, i jus feel kind of lost?

i wan to watch dis show again. ani ideas where to dload?

meaningful stuff from the show.

if u were given a second chance, how would u live ur life?

since i was tagged

This is called 50 FIRST REACTIONS. Type what comes to your mind FIRST whenever you see these 50 words. Don't think and don't go back and change. Doesn't matter how random it is, just type it! Repost it for all of your friends.
Consider yourself tagged if you are reading this!

1. Beer:
dun lyk

2. Food:
my fav

3. Relationships:
still trying

4. Your (ex)crush:
?

5. Power Rangers:
childhood

6. Life:
interesting

7. The President:
kelin

8. Yummy:
food

9. Cars:
i lyk.

10. Movies:
nt interested

11. Halloween:
idiots scaring.

12. Sex:
...

13. Religion:
christian?

14. Hate:
idiots

15. Fear:
future

16. Marriage:
dream.

17. Blondes:
ang moh

18. Slippers:
Y.

19. Shoes:
sporst

20. Asians:
shampoo?. dun ask me y i thought of tt

21. Pass time:
zhuo bo

22. One night stand:
no comments

23. My cell phone:
)(%&#)(%&

24. Smoke:
ok lo

25. Fantasy:
daydream

26. College:
ngee ann

27. High school life:
sucks

28. Pajamas:
nice.

29. Stars:
sky

30. Center:
middle

31. Alcohol:
Song

32. The word love:
is sth chim

33. Friends:
i haf

34. Money:
need a lot

35. Heartache:
at times

36. Time:
5.45

37. Divorce:
nt interested

38. Dogs:
haf one at home

39. Undies:
mum buys for me

40. Parents:
living room

41. Babies:
cute

42. Ex:
3?

43. Song:
colourful cookie

44. Color:
yellow now.

45. Weddings:
dream

46. Pizza:
hut?

47. Hangout:
arcade

48. Rest:
lyk now?

49. Goal:
soccer?

50. Inspiration:
...1.

Audiences, drama is over.

for those who have been following closely to the series,

a big thk u to u all.

although the ending might nt b realli to ur liking but still thx aniway.

for those tt cared, and a lot. i thk u all.

lastly, thx for the beautiful dream tt u ever gave me.

end of story haha.

m i seriously wasting time on a lvl 999?

or do i seriously need to look around more carefully?

after today, i m nt so clear minded after all.

for those hu watch toradora.

takasu ryuuji is a taurus.

bwhahaha.

since i was tagged

1. Besides your lips, where is your favourite spot to be kissed?
cheeks.

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
lyk shit. cos i was the king of living room. and fatty jus haf to disturb my beauty slp in the morning

3. Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Big grp

4. Do you consider yourself spoilt?
nt realli

5. Will you ever donate blood?
OF COS

6. Do you have good friends of the opposite sex?
Duh.

7. Do you want someone dead?
Mayb.

8. What does your last text message says?
go bugis at 2.

9. What are you thinking of right now?
slp.

10. Do you wish someone is with you right now?
Who else could it b.

11. When did you went to sleep last night?
5am. cant slp.

12. Where did you buy your T-shirt that you're wearing right now?
mother buy one

13. Is someone in your mind right now?
WHO ELSE.

14. Who was the last person who texted you?
Zariel.

i cant b bothered wif question 15 onwards. stupid.

no emo post. later someone scold me again.

but i m seriously freakin irritated.

i hate slping in the living room, whenever dad is having an off day i haf to slp on the sofa.

is so goddamn irritating. my whole body hurts after i wake up or rather wake ups. i haf to slp in some crazy yoga position.

in the living room there is onli some cheapo fan tt can be thrown on the streets.

here i m cant slp and doin some stupid kungfu/ tai ji in the kitchen

damn i m realli bored. and I WAN TO SLP.

gonna get edgy soon

yup. i tink i m seriously very proud of myself today.

Today you will have the ability to see yourself objectively -- this level of insight is a luxury, so be sure to take advantage of it. Evaluate some recent accomplishments in your life and reward yourself in some way. If no one else is going to pat you on the back and tell you what a great job you've done, then tell yourself! Get yourself a little gift or take yourself out to one of your favorite places. Give yourself permission to be proud of -- yep -- yourself!


REALLY?

*)(*#)(%*#(.

dis sucks. i m having insomia for lyk days to come alreidi.

dis is seriously mental tormenting.

can knock me out or sth?

i wish things were simple.

i wish for tt u would sing the lyrics of 'love story' to me.

i wish u would take one more look at me.

i wish for so many things.

when back to reality, i m realli a simple man to satisfy.

but things are jus nt goin the way i wan it to.

screw emo. i tried nt to alreidi.

似乎哪里都会勾起我与你之间的回忆。

3

THREE NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU:
1. Jq
2. Jing Quan
3. (*%&*&(

THREE MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE:
1. 18-05-1989
2. 20-11-1954 (cos no xl lao pei no xl me)
3. 11-12-1952 (no lao bu no me. )


THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 30 MINUTES:
1. blogging
2. Listening to family drama
3. Finding where the fuck is zariel's sch

THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY EVEN IF YOU'RE STUCK AT HOME:
1. Sleep
2. IIDX
3. Tok to cai.

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
1. Woman
2. Woman
3. Woman

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. C cai
2. IIDX.
3. Think.

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR VACATION:
1. Japan
2. Taiwan
3. Anywhere else tt gt a lot of cai.

THREE FAVORITE DRINKS:
1. Lemon tea
2. Milk tea
3. Coffee

THREE THINGS FOUND IN YOUR BAG:
1. File with paper
2. Earpiece
3. Helmet liner and gloves

THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
1. Blue
2. White
3. Black

TOP THREE HANGOUTS:
1. Arcade
2. Cathay
3. Home

TOP THREE YOU LOVE SO MUCH:
1. Family
2. Friends
3. Princess.

TOP THREE WHOM YOU THINK WILL ANSWER THIS SURVEY:
1. Hu cares
2. I dun gif a damn
3. ....

TOP THREE "THINGS" SPECIAL TO YOU:
1. My koc. cos it stucks until no tml onli i no how to use.
2. My hp. is so chui until i no how to use
3. My buddies.

TOP THREE THAT MAKES YOU HAPPY LATELY:
1. None
2. Cos i haf been moody lately
3. Fuck off.

TOP THREE REASONS WHY YOU ANSWERED THIS SURVEY:
1.bo liao
2. sian
3. liao gas

family drama ongoing again. LOL

since everybody gt a piece to say.

i do haf a piece to say as well. seriously peace my ass.

let's b more offensive since the word "kind" and "nice" dun link to me as well.

call it selfish or wadever. 人不为己天诛地灭。

I KEPT IT DOWN FOR A WHILE ALREIDI.

U MOTHER FUCKERS BETTER LISTEN UP,

DUN MAKE MY LOVED ONES CRY, IF NT I DUNNO WHERE MY FISTS ARE GOIN TO LAND.

2ND THING, DUN INVOLVE THE WHOLE WORLD IF UR STUFF, AT LEAST DUN DRAG ANIBODY DOWN, SETTLE THINGS YOURSELVES, COME ON U ALL ARE NT KIDS ANYMORE. THE LEAST THING TT YOU CLEARED IS KINDERGARDEN RIGHT?

3RD THING, IF U ALL WAN TOK ABT KARMA DEN EVERY SINGLE FUCK TT GOES BACK TO U IS MAKING U LOSE SOMEONE U LOVE, U WAN TT? WAN STH TT IS NO LINK THIS IS NO LINK. SO DUN COME BULLSHITTING TO ME.

4th THING, EVEN THOUGH SOMETHINGS ARE NO LINK BUT U R CAUSING HARM TO PPL OK DEN LET ME ASK U, WHEN U R TRYING SO HARD PPL DESTROY UR EFFORTS U LYK IT? U R PROBABLY DYING FOR A FIST.

5TH, THX SERIOUSLY. WIPE UR OWN ASS U DUN EXPECT SHITTING AROUND AND SOMEONE CLEANING UP FOR U. TO WHOEVER IT APPLIES. AND LYK ALWAYS I ALWAYS LYK TO SAY.



COME ON, U DUN GROW SHELLS ON UR BACK. SO IF U R NT HAPPY WIF THE WAY I POST U GT 2 CHOICES.

FIRST U FUCK OFF, 2ND GO EAT URSELF. I DUN ENTERTAIN IDIOTS. IF THRASHING THINGS OUT, BETTER DUN TOK NONSENSE TO ME.

LASTLY, I DUN CONDEMN ANIONE, I TINK I M STILL NICE AFTER ALL. COME ON LA. I ONLI WAN TO SAY MY PIECE?

i hope i haf been a gd host yesterday.

and.

疼你的责任

每次你任性时说的一些话
你知道那有多伤人吗
但我顶多只气个三分钟吧
最后依然体贴的送你回家
有时想如果我不是一直让
你也许会懂得学着体谅
但是我完全无法硬着心肠
做得让你有一点难过失望
总觉得有疼你的责任
要你是最快乐最单纯的人
因为你让我的心变得丰盛
原来不奢望的变成可能
总觉得有疼你的责任
让你做最轻松最自然的人
我想不遮掩也是一种信任
爱得了解包容
才算爱得完整

random things tt came to me.

i m no longer a student,

once i enter army i m goin to b a member of society since i m nt furthering my studies.

no longer a kid and the future is there for me to think whether i lyk it or nt.

i wonder if i can take it. =(



nxt up, was reading some ghost stories. and yes at dis hr. odd habit i dunno y

suddenly rmb something tt dj zhou cong qing said in his show,

"did u no while u r reading or listening to ghost stories, dey r around? cos dey oso want to no wad they are capable of."

when i m pulled back to reality

it bcomes so harsh and different until it hurts.

You are most compatible with AQUARIUS! I'm sure most of your friends are Aquarians! Together you're going to rock! They are nearly always intelligent, concise, clear and logical. Aquarius are often felt to be unfathomable when in reality they live almost entirely on the surface .Aquarians will not reveal their innermost feelings no matter how hard others may try to persuade them, simply because they are unable to do so. People of this sign have a reputation for being enigmatic, difficult to understand, and different from everyone else, and cleverly play on this to gain power and attention.They are extremely friendly yet detached at a personal level, sociable in large gatherings, but unsociable at smaller meetings and parties which require greater intimacy. They are helpful and compassionate when involved with charities or group activities.

(..wtf is dis lol)

did a personality test dis is wad i gt

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

life is lyk a game.

a game tt u r being forcefully being thrown into.

so u can choose to play it bad or well.

but dun forget u might get played by it, and it can happen anitime , aniwhere even if u play it well.

was watching clannad after story.

came across a phrase.

"don't lose track of what is important to you"

ok i tink i m feeling xl of late. or perhaps is the lack of slp tt i m goin kind of bonkers.

firstly, she is no smoke chamber. she dun need any chimney to follow her around.

2nd tink i dun tink she looks lyk some peanuts tt u haf to go around muah or chee or even muah chee to it.

3rd tink, wassup wif the dick face.

4th i tink u seriously need a bolster or MAYB A FIST? i sure could help wif tt? =D

nowadays i find myself nt posting anitink productive.

nt tt i m doin anitink productive either.

i tink life is probably goin to suck when ur world revolves onli around one woman isnt it.

time to set some things right.

the more beautiful the memories are,

the more painful they are,

and the more it hurts.

wad will you do if life was stuck between heaven and hell?

this is hell.

seriously.

i need to eat myself alreidi.

i tink it wouldnt hurt to stay home for few days.

save money

and gif myself some distance

from princess =(

here m i nt slping doin dis quiz. taken from nex blog. nth to do while waiting for my hair to dry. after coming back home from qian hui's bday wet bday party.

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
-No.

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
-when i lost my laptop. nt bcos i lose it though

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
-nt bad, rather unique.

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
-beef probably

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
-No but dis question is kind of dumb

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
-MAYB. i look damn xl and unfrenly. =x

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM?

-as and when i lyk it

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?

-tink so.

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?

-mayb, i tink my balls might shrink

10.WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?

-banana nut crunch

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?

-No.

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?

-Durian

14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
-Face

15. RED OR PINK?

-none

16. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?

-anitink tt i dun lyk abt myself.

17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?

princess. =D

18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST?

-nt realli

19. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?

grey long pants pyjamas and no shoes.

21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?

-bullshits.

22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?

-blue

23. FAVORITE SMELLS?
-no preference?

24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?

-yong zhan

25. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?

-i m nt gay but ok la. it wasnt sent aniway, it was voluntary

26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?

-i hate sports.

27. HAIR COLOR?

-KIM.

28. EYE COLOR?
-Brown

29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?

-No.

30. FAVORITE FOOD?

-anitink tt is nice

31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?

-None either

32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
-shld b chi bi 2 liao. i dun rmb watching ani movie from den

33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?

-White

34. SUMMER OR WINTER?

-Winter

35. HUGS OR KISSES?

-Both

37. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?

-i dun get it

38. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
-i still dun get it

39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?

-comics. pick one series.

40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?

-fruits cos my mouse pad is some dumb fruits table cloth

41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?

-nite nv watch tv

42. FAVORITE SOUND(S)?

-%*(&(*&$ (is nt sth nice aniway)

43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?

-bolster?

44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?

-Pasir ris can?

45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?

-draw.

46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
-singapore.

47. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK?

-hu cares.

48. HOW DID YOU MEET YOUR SPOUSE?

-i wish i did.

i haven been all smiles for one day for a long long time.

today had been a pleasant day seriously.

all the events tt happened today.

Thank you. princess. =D

i m so addicted to scripted connection. =D

especially A mix.

let's blog sth today

sth long since i haven realli do tt in a long while to come.

poly is over and yes, hopefully i get out of there safely. crosses fingers seriously.

3 yrs of poly. i met all sorts of ppl. seriously all sorts.

luckily the level of politics are rather low or mayb is i m always nt affected by politics.

cos firstly i mind my own biz. i dun hold balls either.

i ran across some juniors' blogs. they were disliking abt this and tt in their new sch.

i guess those r very gd examples of politics.

i do admit old times are best, how i met my buddies, how we created trouble together as usual, how we had fun, how we pat each other on the back whenever ani one of us needed it under the clear blue sky.

most imptly, the frenship tt was nourished and grew among the yrs.

i dun hope for things to b the same way they are. i onli hope for things to b better.

nxt issue, i tink i gt some balless issue on hand. need to do sth abt it. seriously.

last but nt least, love is blind and i m blinded.

i del the videos. sibei irritating. blocking my side.

http://www.konamistyle.jp/ecitem/item55888.html

check out dis shit.

genso suikoden in cd. wonder is it vcd? sure looks interesting.

hope is in video den gt ppl go subbed it.

http://www.konamistyle.jp/ecitem/item55888.html

check out dis shit.

genso suikoden in cd. wonder is it vcd? sure looks interesting.

hope is in video den gt ppl go subbed it.

dick song passed hahaha.

most impt tink to do in 2009: sleep

best gift to give in 2009: pillow.

best tink you can buy for yourself in 2009: bolster.

best wishing phrase in 2009: ask the person go home slp better. preferably tell him/her in the face.

theme for 2009: anitink tt do wif bed.

best nickname in 2009: lao zhang.

Five becomes four - yellow card

Needed some time, so I could find 
A little strength to redefine 
What I’ve become, what I have done 
I never asked to be the one 

I’m riding it out, this storm that you brought in 
Bringing it down, only around, for you I go again
It’s got to be, easy to see 
What everyone takes out of me 
Knocking me down, dragging me out 
How did you end up in that crowd? 

Did you run away? Did you fall apart?
Do you see yourself for what you are?
Will you be looking for it anymore?
When five becomes four
When you're all alone with a melody
Do you close your eyes and think of me
Will you still hear me singing anymore
When five becomes four

Try and put aside, your history and pride 
Maybe for one moment in time, we'll all be on your side 
The story goes, nobody knows
What it was like when you would throw 
Someone who cared out in the air 
Then let them crash down anywhere 

Did you run away? Did you fall apart?
Do you see yourself for what you are?
Will you be looking for it anymore?
When five becomes four
When you're all alone with a melody
Do you close your eyes and think of me?
Will you still hear me singing anymore?
When five becomes four

Remember the line, never say die?
You were the reason I survived
Where did you go? I need to know
I waited here, you never showed
It’s gonna be, harder for me
I can't forgive so many things 
When you were down, I was around 
Why would you try and hurt me now 

Just tell me why
Just tell me why

Did you run away
Did you run away
Did you run away

Did you run away? Did you fall apart?
Do you see yourself for what you are?
Will you be looking for it anymore?
When five becomes four
When you're all alone with a melody
Do you close your eyes and think of me?
Will you still hear me singing anymore?
When five becomes four

When five becomes four
When five becomes four

change.

abt time.

finally things are undergoing some changes.

wish 1 jus had a turn of direction.

my LCD of my handphone cracked.

so pls dun msg me, instead call me.

now i thought of sth.

我现在过的生活是生活吗?

i need some life. sth to do seriously. soon.

quote

came across a quote.

"conflict is lyk a cancer, get it treated early, and u might haf the chance to b healthy again"

i m jus happy some things are now.

mayb tt's wad pure contentment comes from.

o ya. if i dun reply tags, is nt i dun wan to reply them but i dunno wad to reply so i will jus leave it hanging.

music

yea i changed my music again.

for some reasons.

and dis song doesnt realli sound lyk its title.

the spring isnt so spring after all.

wif all the unnatural wind lately.

and a storm inside me.

i m fine.

probably. so dun wry.

i thought i couldnt b so noble.

but i can after all.

dammit

i haven put anitink down

i haven give up

i still miss you lyk ever.

everywhere around the corner jus seems to haf shadows of you

is jus almost lyk u etched yourself as a piece in a corner of my mind.

is dis some withdrawal sydrome.

i realli hate things are right now.

for the first few times.

i m actually having problems slping.

even though i m so freaking tired. i roll around in bed.

my mind is filled wif thoughts? nt exactly. i try nt to bring them to bed.

so i dunno wad's the problem. =(

HOLY SHIT I M ACTUALLY ONLI 10 DAYS AWAY FROM GRADUATION?

dis 3 yrs. i tink i went thr quite a fair bit,

i grew up, i luffed, i smiled, i gt pissed, i gt emo and lastly, i grew fat.

but still i was proud tt wad i haf become.

poly life wasnt exactly fun. lyk i said since i m anti social, i dun realli haf much frens around in poly.

it will nv beat secondary sch or my outside frens i guess.

probably is time to prepare for army.

and the fucking indians are making a lot of noises outside. EH dun tok outside ppl hse ok, go inside ur hse and tok b4 i get a pail of water and pour outside.

sth abt iidx.

dis is the first time i m ever posting abt iidx.



PORDA SUNI. FIRST LVL 12.

wad a close shave.

i was jus few seconds away of landing myself inside a hospital. or even death.

the door of co-op which is the so called provision shop of my sch 'exploded' or rather the glass door shattered.

i dun even no how to react.

mayb da nan bu si bi you hou fu?

mayb nt.

after so long, jq is 1300 finally.

no intention of pushing at first but o well some song surprised me.

sch is a bore.

and i haf to clear the shit out of the boredom.

perhaps i haf rot too long to b full of shit

long post.

i haven done some long post in a while might as well do so. since i m in a real clear state of mind now.

Some tinks tt i might haf found out abt myself. BUT do correct me if i m wrong.

some may ask, y is dis needed. ERM, let's jus say we haf to constantly improve and do some reflections on ourselves? isnt tt how we improve? or learn it thr the hard way by making someone tell u.

in pt form.
-my temper goes fast, but it isnt ez to get it on fire. But last yr, somebody proved me wrong. and she proved me wrong by making me wear a skirt and kotex every mth to come, and if u dun get tt, pls use jqwiki. thx.

-my eq is rather high. i wouldnt say very very but at least above average and somebody proved me wrong last yr as well. dis is stupid i dun tink i m handle my emotions tt lousily or wadever it is spelt.

-I AM ACTUALLY WEAK. (screw dis seriously in whichever sense tt u can ever link me to weak)


i dunno how to go on seriously. but to go abt it quickly is. dis is a new yr. let bygones b bygones in ani sense of ani way, tt is if u can do so. cos for every min tt u r angry/sad/having negative emotions, u r actually losing 60 seconds of happiness.

i m taking things much more easily now. But, my theory is still, i take things lyk a man and i do things lyk a man, if there are ani things tt need to b settled wif me, haf a cup of coffee wif me and we can tok over it. I certainly dun believe in doin actions behind backs or wadever lyk tt.

but of cos.last of all, above r jus my thoughts and is definitely nt directed at anione, unless otherwise tink so?

2009

new yr,

new stuff, new frens, new resolutions, new hse, new goals.

and most of all,

new shit.

nvm tt's nt the pt. i wasnt here to type shit aniway. well i haf officially moved to a new place. for temporary moments again. guess i haf to adapt again. and first day onli i m alreidi slping in my living room damn. zz. nice place for everytink seriously, but jus tt the location is abit sucky.

last of all, where is my ans?

rmb when i say when i mean i m rotten means i m rotten?

den let's add on to one pt again.

wad u haf seen up to date is nt the biggest flare from me.

it jus might get worse

or even worst.

jus dun let me find out some tinks. seriously

Reflection from the past 1,2 mths

today, i tink is the day tt i realli took in a deep breath and let it out

i tink for the past 1,2 mths i haf been goin haywire? or call it emotional torment or torture which by right it shldnt b so.

o at this pt u all mus b tinking, "o jq goin to gif up alreidi huh"

nope i m nt giving it up yet, is jus i m making myself to take tinks real easy, i m leaving things to fate.

dis 1 or 2 mths especially i notice some tinks in myself.

the times i emo were far more den the times i m luffing or even smiling.

i get angry at little tinks fast. and i thought i had a lot of patience but apparently when it comes to someone, i suck at my patience. practically bcoming some grumpy old man.

seriously tt's bad

and i haf been using my brains for wrong tinks. tinking too much rubbish.

but still, i nv regret, cos i realli did my best and did all i could. =)

still, be happy since the old jq is coming back. no more angry man except when i m hungry and of cos will b back full of xlness =D.

i wonder wad kind of christmas m i goin to haf dis yr.

mayb it might jus turn out to b the worst christmas tt i m goin to haf.

battle of yi ling starts now.

i m bored too. acknowledgement to those tt ended my boredom to let me c dis quiz

1)Pick a word that begins with the first letter of your first name?!
Jackass. =)

2)Your ex shows up randomly at your house, what do you say?!
WHO R U?

3)Is there anyone that you care more about than yourself?!
yea.someone

4)How many bedrooms do you have in your house?!
3 i tink. o wait, i dun even haf a hse of my own damn.

5)Do tattoos and piercings excite you?!
No.

6)Is there a reason for your friendster song?!
i jus removed it.

7)Do you hate the last guy/girl you were talking to?!
no?

8)Who was your last text message from?!
MY GROUP LEADER. REMINDING ME TO DO MY WORK HOLY SHIT.

9)What's the best wedding you've been to?!
My sister's wedding.

10)What time did you wake up this morning?!
8

11)If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?!
obviously

12)Do you get along better with guys or girls?!
NONE. I AM ANTI SOCIAL. MY SISTER SAY I M AUTISTIC.

13)Who is the best person to cheer you up?!
Myself.

14)Did you mean it when you said "i love you" last?!
NO. I WAS BULLSHITTING AROUND.

15)When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in the face?!
JUST.

16)Is it okay if you kiss people when you're single?!
yea. i tink my big fat mummy deserves one big kiss from me

17)What is wrong with you right now?!
fuck u understand.

18)Would you go in public looking like you do right now?!
I DUN MIND SINCE I M IN MY UNCLE CLOTHES AS USUAL

19)Would you kiss someone to make your bf/gf mad?!
tt's pure sam pat

20)Do you believe exes can really ever be "just friends"?!
THE ONE TT CAME OUT WIF DIS QUESTION IS STUPID

21)Do you use t9, word, or abc?!
t9

22)Is there a guy/girl that knows everything or mostly everything about you?!
Yeah

23)Do you tell your mom everything?!
no. she no nuts abt me

24)Who was the last person you yelled at?!
my nephew

25)Who was the last person/s you cried in front of?!
In front of my dead grandmother

26)Have you told anybody you loved them today?!
No.

27)Think of the last person you held hands with, do they mean something to you?!
Of cos, he's my nephew.

28)Could you cry right now?!
No. i am almost heartless

29)What do you need to be doing right now?!
A towel. to bath

30)How's your ex doing?!
I care abt her.

31)Who can you trust?!
Myself.

32)Where were you friday night?!
Somewhere tt i dun wish to rmb

33)Who did you last talk to on the phone?!
Wan Qi

34)Where will you be in a hour?!
Ramming the keyboard

35)How late did you stay up last night?!
2 am?

36)What's your hair look like today?!
lyk everyday.

today i tink the onli tink tt she did to make me happy is taking a grp photo.

the rest of the day i suddenly go thailand.

and my age jus went down

南拳妈妈 - 下雨天

下雨天了怎么办 我好想你
不敢打给你 我找不到原因
什么失眠的声音
变得好熟悉
沉默的场景 做你的代替
陪我听雨滴

期待让人越来越沉迷
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞 一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑 才能够有你的体贴

其实 没有我你分不清那些
彻别 接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

i gt a nice wake up call from some #)&)%&#)(&%)(. HAHAAHAH. nt the kana fuck left right up down.

i m definitely feeling better and i no wad i m goin to do when the time comes.

i m freaking bored. i need some entertainment

day 3.

dis is seriously still too painful from me.

those words seem to haf some ringing effect on me. and i m abt to get crushed from those words

i seriously need some time.

i m practically stepping on landmines and jet fighter planes crashing into my life.

seriously, m i an idiot?

if nt, y treat me lyk one.

and o, now the thief is calling for the police when the thief is done wif the work.

i guess somebody is gd wif mind games after all.

if u dun understand dis post dun bother asking, i m nt entertaining.

thx all tt supported. =D

today was a fruitful day.

i was nt happy. but at least i tried. somebody jus haf the stupid remote control on her hand tt can make my mood go haywire. damn it.

went nihonmura for high tea buffet wif evina sis. as usual the food there were nt too bad. seriously nt bad at all for the price. and did alot of catching up tt we needed to do so

den starbucks were giving this free drink from 5-7pm. lucky to get a cup. for salvation army. i donated 2 bucks so ya. nt lyk the coffeeshop coffee. so ya.

so the happy ppl for the day. at least in the day i was rather happy.



free drinks for the typical singaporeans yo.

seems lyk some evil side of me is awakening.

or mayb i m jus pured bored to c some commotion or events happening.

when i say i m rotten. i mean it so. i seriously can b an ass too.

old

conclusion. I M SERIOUSLY OLD.

nt in terms of age. but my body jus cant take nights without slp animore.

Let's do a comparision between now and den:

Then:
-16 yrs of age when i start frequent tonning
-Sanguoing whole nite at the arcade at marina bay
-Can walk from marina bay steamboat area to the MRT station in the morning after arcade close since there is no bus.
-NOT SO FAT.
-After tonning still can straight away go play dmgf and can add pts.

Now:
-19 yrs. nt even 20.
-rarely tonned now. body cant take it.
-Random stuff done to burn the time through the nite. For e.g pointing middle fingers X times at a single person without him noticing. where X represent a very large number.
-I almost died when walking from blk 302 to Lot 1
-FAT lyk the ball.
-Hand lyk tofu when playing guitar.
-THE STUPID GUITAR KEEP GIVING ME 94 PG ended up no extra stage for certain credit. eh come on la i haven miss having extra stage for a nong nong time alreidi ok.

猿渡 Saruwatari (monkey on a crossing bridge) 涼二 Ryouji (twice refreshing)

nth better to do so play wif dis. and seriously wtf y mus i always b associated wif monkeys.

i wish to b associated wif a girl who is born in the yr of monkey though =x haha

tagged by twin by dunno X light yrs back cos i didnt c.

10 weird things/little known facts/habits

1) my surname is wee. as in by right it shld b wee jing quan instead of huang jing quan dun ask me y is it huang aniway cos my mum wans it tt way.

2) i haf a bad affinity wif virgo girls. lyked lyk 5 virgo girls b4? we r onli gd as frens i guess.

3) From kindergarden to primary sch, i was a big bully. after secondary sch, i was bullied.

4) I used to cry alot. crybaby haha.

5) I was nicknamed destroyer at home. cos almost everytink i touch at home will most lykly spoil in short term. dis onli applies to things tt are nt mine. i dunno the reason y seriously/

6) i haf a habit of self defense everyday b4 i slp. if u dun understand, go figure

7) i may haf a fierce face. or put it ani way u wan to. but my bark is definitely louder than my bite, i m a kind man u no =)

8) i dun realli acknowledge my gd frens/buddies by words. i hate saying some mushy stuff or wadever along tt line. if u r my gd fren/buddies, c how i treat u cos i treat them lyk my family.

9)eating is favourite habit (not realli a hidden fact huh)

10) i love myself actually. HAHA.

hu to tag:
whoever. lyk i care abt them

i m so freaking bored at home when u haf so many pieces of animation stuck wif u. sian.

i m nt such a homely man after all.

i wan to go out i guess. i guess mayb i jus dun lyk staying in dis hse haha.

when i was young, i often created a lot of trouble. destroy things, beat ppl up, disturb ppl, teachers shake their heads when they c me. parents were often called up to sch, i tink my parents were probably tinking y did dey haf a kid lyk dis.

When i was older, my results were nt fantastic even though i was in the em1 class in primary sch, in fact i was always the last. at this pt of time my results were always compared. it will always b "eh u c tt so and so results so gd, goin into a gd secondary sch and all blah blah" i tink at this pt of time my parents were tinking y is my son nt hardworking and smart enuff.

When i was in secondary sch, i was in New town, results kind of picked up, but still nt fantastic. it is the results of any average joe tt u could c around. past time in class was to play poker cards and all. i tink my strongest language is probably vulgarities. at home i often glued my self to the computer or ps 2. my parents probably tink "wah lao wad my son will bcome? shakes head"

Now, bcos of this incident. my goodie old sister has been almost condemned and i m being said to b god send? so wtf is wrong wif dis.

life seriously haven been so messed up.

what will u do when ur siblings are actually pissed off wif your parents and quarreling and parents tok of disowning ur sibling and it involves you?

what will you do when u haf 10 projects overdue due to the loss of laptop and ur grp leader is shaking his/her head?

what will you do when ur parents are renting a place and dey need u to get some seriously quite high pay job to feed urself when you are doing your final year project in sch?

what will you do if the girl you like is giving u hell loads of probs and bull shit?

what will you do when your family is in shambles?

lastly,

what WILL YOU DO WHEN ALL OF THIS SHIT IS HAPPENING ALTOGETHER.

i dun even feel lyk spouting vulgarities now, seriously.

i tink i m very happy and contented to no some tinks.

sometimes i jus need a little push

i wonder is she waiting or expecting something from me

NNB PUA CB. i tell u dun let me c u. i swear i will make u pay for making her cry.

and for spoiling my mood. _|_.

holy shit, there is actually digimon online

international site might b coming out soon. dis is the unofficial website.
http://digimonrpgonline.net/

now onli korean and chinese server available. cant find the chinese though

i tell u, lim pei is kan sian in sch.

nth constructive for today as well. man it isnt the monday blues but pure tireness. i need the slp so i guess for the nxt coming few wks i might jus b a gd boy and go home straight after sch everyday.

bought new ear pieces but dey r rather powerful

so i might jus b joining the old men's recreation club and say

"100 sticks for 30 cents yo"

ok i gt my new laptop. finally online. but i m still upset losing my old one. i haf been realli down these few days seriously. many thoughts. including killing, dis is goin to b complicated. so i will tell if u ask but depending as well.

AND LAST OF ALL A BIG FUCK YOU TO THE MOTHER FUCKER TT STOLE MY LAPTOP AND MY COM ACCESORIES. MAY U GET STRIKE BY LIGHTNING WHILE WALKING ON THE STREETS AND UR BALLS ROT WHILE WATCHING PORN. U STOLE A LAPTOP COS U R POOR AND U R DESTINED TO STAY POOR EVEN AFTER U STOLE THE LAPTOP AND COS U STOLE IT.

c i m nt so bad after all.