my LCD of my handphone cracked.

so pls dun msg me, instead call me.

now i thought of sth.

我现在过的生活是生活吗?

i need some life. sth to do seriously. soon.

quote

came across a quote.

"conflict is lyk a cancer, get it treated early, and u might haf the chance to b healthy again"

i m jus happy some things are now.

mayb tt's wad pure contentment comes from.

o ya. if i dun reply tags, is nt i dun wan to reply them but i dunno wad to reply so i will jus leave it hanging.

music

yea i changed my music again.

for some reasons.

and dis song doesnt realli sound lyk its title.

the spring isnt so spring after all.

wif all the unnatural wind lately.

and a storm inside me.

i m fine.

probably. so dun wry.

i thought i couldnt b so noble.

but i can after all.

dammit

i haven put anitink down

i haven give up

i still miss you lyk ever.

everywhere around the corner jus seems to haf shadows of you

is jus almost lyk u etched yourself as a piece in a corner of my mind.

is dis some withdrawal sydrome.

i realli hate things are right now.

for the first few times.

i m actually having problems slping.

even though i m so freaking tired. i roll around in bed.

my mind is filled wif thoughts? nt exactly. i try nt to bring them to bed.

so i dunno wad's the problem. =(

HOLY SHIT I M ACTUALLY ONLI 10 DAYS AWAY FROM GRADUATION?

dis 3 yrs. i tink i went thr quite a fair bit,

i grew up, i luffed, i smiled, i gt pissed, i gt emo and lastly, i grew fat.

but still i was proud tt wad i haf become.

poly life wasnt exactly fun. lyk i said since i m anti social, i dun realli haf much frens around in poly.

it will nv beat secondary sch or my outside frens i guess.

probably is time to prepare for army.

and the fucking indians are making a lot of noises outside. EH dun tok outside ppl hse ok, go inside ur hse and tok b4 i get a pail of water and pour outside.

sth abt iidx.

dis is the first time i m ever posting abt iidx.



PORDA SUNI. FIRST LVL 12.

wad a close shave.

i was jus few seconds away of landing myself inside a hospital. or even death.

the door of co-op which is the so called provision shop of my sch 'exploded' or rather the glass door shattered.

i dun even no how to react.

mayb da nan bu si bi you hou fu?

mayb nt.

after so long, jq is 1300 finally.

no intention of pushing at first but o well some song surprised me.

sch is a bore.

and i haf to clear the shit out of the boredom.

perhaps i haf rot too long to b full of shit

long post.

i haven done some long post in a while might as well do so. since i m in a real clear state of mind now.

Some tinks tt i might haf found out abt myself. BUT do correct me if i m wrong.

some may ask, y is dis needed. ERM, let's jus say we haf to constantly improve and do some reflections on ourselves? isnt tt how we improve? or learn it thr the hard way by making someone tell u.

in pt form.
-my temper goes fast, but it isnt ez to get it on fire. But last yr, somebody proved me wrong. and she proved me wrong by making me wear a skirt and kotex every mth to come, and if u dun get tt, pls use jqwiki. thx.

-my eq is rather high. i wouldnt say very very but at least above average and somebody proved me wrong last yr as well. dis is stupid i dun tink i m handle my emotions tt lousily or wadever it is spelt.

-I AM ACTUALLY WEAK. (screw dis seriously in whichever sense tt u can ever link me to weak)


i dunno how to go on seriously. but to go abt it quickly is. dis is a new yr. let bygones b bygones in ani sense of ani way, tt is if u can do so. cos for every min tt u r angry/sad/having negative emotions, u r actually losing 60 seconds of happiness.

i m taking things much more easily now. But, my theory is still, i take things lyk a man and i do things lyk a man, if there are ani things tt need to b settled wif me, haf a cup of coffee wif me and we can tok over it. I certainly dun believe in doin actions behind backs or wadever lyk tt.

but of cos.last of all, above r jus my thoughts and is definitely nt directed at anione, unless otherwise tink so?

2009

new yr,

new stuff, new frens, new resolutions, new hse, new goals.

and most of all,

new shit.

nvm tt's nt the pt. i wasnt here to type shit aniway. well i haf officially moved to a new place. for temporary moments again. guess i haf to adapt again. and first day onli i m alreidi slping in my living room damn. zz. nice place for everytink seriously, but jus tt the location is abit sucky.

last of all, where is my ans?