dear ms s,
when i tink abt my memories with you,

i realized that i am so afraid of losing u =)

hi dearest stalker of my blog. lol

i am sry tt u haf to tahan my dark clouds ytd.

i really wanna say a big thank you to u for all u haf done up to date. i really appreciate it =D.

I DUN HAF A COW TEMPER OK. ok la mayb a bit, QUITE a bit. >=D

most imptly, no regrets. let's get moving =)

i no u will b reading idiot. LOL. nt the stalker XD.

stupid stupid stupid stupid =p

no flowery words. care abt u. >=D

sometimes i look back,

i feel tt i haf grown through many things. grown up in some sense. learnt many things, through the hard way.

but.

i haf oso seen how scary tt i haf or might haf bcome.

when naive is no longer innocence.

yes time to update dis long dead blog.

hello army la, where gt so much time. u tink i sit at home and shake balls everyday meh.

Life has been good. somehow. or mayb it did gt better.
My bday wish did came true as well and it kind of came 10 days earlier.

I was thinking, how i met u.
How i was lyk tinking wah nb this girl nt the noisy on the first day we met.

and how we tok more to one another by me disturbing u during classes and u would pinch me and hit me until blue black until my mother asked "eh u kana bully in class ah"

and tinking back abt how i gt to listen to ur phone calls and hear u rant. ok la nt tt i gt a prob but u could go yada whole nite u no. But no issues wif tt la.

TINKING ABT HOW I KEEP LUFFING AT U MAKES ME LUFF HAHA. i dunno how u always become a joke for me and how i bcome a joker for u.

tinking abt how 8 yrs has past and things r still gd. how much u urself and me myself went through, it certainly hasnt been easy.

But still....

Now, all i tink abt is you. =)

Putting tt aside,

Thank you all for ur well wishes and some of the presents!

Happy 21st to myself. as usual. Not the lyk parade, the celebration can go on for weeks.

我害怕你心碎没人帮你擦眼泪...

the hell is wif the 三选一

自欺欺人

tough times dun last. tough men will.

goin back to camp to push the monsters.
monsters weighing from 2 tonnes to 6 tonnes.
#$&*^*&$#.

yet another wk closer to wad i need to get.

come on. let's do this.

back to camp.

以为来了个穆皇后，最后是个孙尚香。。。

the weeks are abt to get longer. =(

long 4 long 4 long 4. sbo sbo sbo. nt the heat rash all over.

is this what i signed up for?

坚持学单纯的小孩
静静看守这份爱

=)

this is bliss. =D

xl. =)

things are looking so much better ahead of us.

I M LYK TOTALLY AMUSED.
u r lyk a pathetic loser now. so stop making it worse.

the world goes round.
some tinks goes round as well.
so when after a few turns.
u r back at something again.

simy =D

I AM ACTUALLY STUDYING. CCB.

i m marvelled at how cruel and heartless i can b at times.

amazing. jus amazing.

jus admit it. the whole world is too big to please when it is so hard jus to please a person.

some ppl jus deserves spit and go. pui. =D

i tink tt's wad we call..liao gas?

bye bye days.

time to go into hibernation mode.

i m leaving.

now mayb i truly will haf sth to look fwd to. =D

this is crap.

mayb i nv lost it.
is jus tt person is already long gone.
i shld jus stop wasting time on some thrash
tt's it man.

很久以前，牛牛有著浪漫的心情，牽著愛人的手便不知疲倦，硬要從專一走到永恒。牛牛信誓旦旦要給對方幸福，感動得星星也從天上墜落。

很久以後，牛牛的身邊有了一個看似永恒的人，無論是不是當年的那個人，牛牛都會給對方幸福，只是牛牛開始回避浪漫，故意讓自己顯得刻板，當年的那個追愛的孩子連同當年的那個人都變成了太陽底下的塵埃。

haf i lost it?.

nice ppl die young.

c my drift.

i decided i shld live longer.

random. LOL JIN GE.

.™ = says:
LOL
he look lyk he holding some snake in the picture
lol

-blizzard. [2507] says:
i think the dog damn scared he slam him
want to run

.™ = says:
LOL

metamophorsis

the way things are goin now. i m definitely growing. in a unhealthy way.

tolerance lvl went down.
temper went bad
marvelled at idiots more.
did a lot more stupid things

or mayb

that's a new yr resolution?

and realli

仁慈的父 我已坠入
看不见罪的国度
请原谅我的自负..

I HATE U =D

random feng.

.™ = says:
i care.
he ooc
tt proves one thing alreidi

-blizzard. [2507] says:
i think
he in camp go pia some1 backside

.™ = says:
LOLOLOLOL

NT THE FUNNY. CB SPAWL. XD.

仁慈的父 我已坠入
看不见罪的国度
请原谅我的自负..

random

very nice.

i nt the know 4 ppl that is born on oct 24th now.

my stand is.

dun make ur problem my problem.


CB

ccb y is sanguo so expensive. NB.

worthless meat bag.

so wad haf u left for urself when u haf given it ur all.

nth.

how is even this shit possible wif bare hands. wah lao this guy is sick meh. AND NICE FACE AT THE SCORE SHEET AREA

捞针当中

方向を、針見つけること、未来へのキー

I TINK I M PMSING.

sth is jus wrong. lately.

i dun feel the mood for christmas at all. seriously.

QUITE THE HAPPY HOLIDAYS _|_

Always say how you feel, because you never know if you'll get that chance again.

habits die hard.

i m still looking at my phone everynite wondering if it will ring or nt

random.

the days past,
how i miss them, the carefree days that i didnt haf to tink abt anitink.
having fun is all i cared.

we hurt others and gt hurt ourselves along the way, the path of growing up.
laughters tt gt carried away by the wind.
and how we sat under the cerulean skies and pondering abt our future.

looking at how things change, places change
and how i change.
or rather how i haf become.

life haf definitely become heavier with more loads.

o shit man, i realized i haven been blogging lately. More like blogging properly lately.

so i guess i shld update a bit.

backpay on the 10th, yay. been waiting for a while. still dun gif i tink i m goin to ask someone to file one letter up already?

things to do for the month:

finish bike lessons.
celebrate christmas and new yr ERR.
clear my room. wtf man nice room i gt here.
bring a certain individual to underwater world. 0.0
drink, drank, drunk.
learn to smile more, NICE FACE i m putting up everyday.

it has realli been a while, isnt it?

the secret.

jus read some archives posts from the other blog.

HOW IS IT EVEN POSSIBLE TO FORGET EVERYTINK TT HAS HAPPENED.

=(

i need bandages. for my heart

and i lost sth.

最长的电影

我们的开始
是很长的电影
放映了三年
我票都还留着
冰上的芭蕾
脑海中还在旋转
望着你
慢慢忘记你
朦胧的时间
我们溜了多远
冰刀画的圈
圈起了谁改变
如果再重来
会不会稍嫌狼狈
爱是不是
不开口才珍贵
再给我两分钟
让我把记忆结成冰
别融化了眼泪
你妆都花了
要我怎么记得
记得你叫我忘了吧
记得你叫我忘了吧
你说你会哭
不是因为在乎


朦胧的时间
我们溜了多远
冰刀画的圈
圈起了谁改变
如果再重来
会不会稍嫌狼狈
爱是不是
不开口才珍贵
再给我两分钟
让我把记忆结成冰
别融化了眼泪
你妆都花了
要我怎么记得
记得你叫我忘了吧
记得你叫我忘了吧
你说你会哭
不是因为在乎
再给我两分钟
让我把记忆结成冰
别融化了眼泪
你妆都花了
要我怎么记得
记得你叫我忘了吧
记得你叫我忘了吧
你说你会哭
不是因为在乎

life has been peaceful. too peaceful tt it feels...empty.

wad haf i been doin all this while?

这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下

check ur mail.

你是否也在思念里挣扎？

i wonder y did things turn out lyk tt.

or mayb it was all along supposed to b lyk dis.

check mate. bye bye.

the black mage vs the white mage.

wad is dis sia.

安静

只剩下钢琴陪我谈了一天

睡着的大提琴 安静的旧旧的

我想你已表现的非常明白

我懂我也知道 你没有舍不得

你说你也会难过我不相信

牵着你陪着我 也只是曾经

希望他是真的比我还要爱你

我才会逼自己离开

你要我说多难堪 我根本不想分开

为什么还要我用微笑来带过

我没有这种天份 包容你也接受他

不用担心得太多 我会一直好好过

你已经远远离开 我也会慢慢走开

为什么我连分开都迁就着你

我真的没有天份 安静的没这么快

我会学着放弃你 是因为我太爱你

ok time to go.

safti mi.

3 wks in there without coming out bye bye.

i once heard.

Man usually no what their decisions are,

but many times they jus need ppl to affirmed it.

Life is lyk a great story book

the more u read it, the more it starts to make sense.

things are getting reciprocated, i tink.

HAHA.

BOOKING IN.

THROW BOMB. AMEN.

somebody better b more honest if nt she will get it. >=D

and..jia you.

i no u can do it. =)

let's b honest,

i do miss u.

i still rmb my promises.

a swensen's treat, a gift.

i haven forget.

after turning so many rounds.

it may jus return to the same pt.

我不应该让情绪影响我的事业。
所以请别再打扰我了。

重要的话就珍惜。
珍惜的话就别放弃。

damn. insonmia.

screwed up body clock whenever i book out.

and abt time i get my ass out of tekong soon. nnbcb.

我觉得我时常埋怨自己 ：（

什么东西做得不够好。

我要学会懂得多原谅自己
我。。。想我放手了但我还微笑着，要你加油。
曾经的好，都谢谢你。
一切随缘吧。

which.

practical stats points.

now < past.

outer surface stats points

now > past.

Character stats points

now < past.

Streetwise stats points

now < past.

Care and concern stats points

now < past.

my kind of girl?

If you're a guy - post this as "my kind of girl"
If you're a girl - post this as "my kind of boy"

1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
erm. 顺眼 lo.

2. Smart?
preferably yes.

3. Preferred age?
4 age gap older or younger max.

4. Preferred height?
no preference i tink.

5. How about sense of humor?
erm nt realli?

6. How about piercings?
no face piercings can alreidi.

7. Accepts you for who you are?
duh.

8. Pink hair?
i prefer blue actually. obviously no?.

9. Mushy or no?
anitink?

10. Thin or fat?
erm medium?

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
knn. dis is racist. y no yellow?

12. Long hair or short hair?
erm. oso can.

13. Plastic or metal?
..pick car or girl.

14. Smells good?
u tink food ah. but yes la of cos.

15. Smoker?
no?

16. Drinker?
can la.

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type.
nono. nxt door is kelin kia. i dun wan kelin po.

18. Muscular?
_|_ simi muscular.

19. Plays piano?
can la.

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
is dis some talentime question?

21. Plays violin?
as long as she dun kill me wif the violin

22. Sings very good?
nt necessary.

23. Vain?
soso lo.

24. With glasses?
anitink

25. With braces?
anitink

26. Shy type?
erm can la i tink

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
a little of both.

28. Active or passive?
once again, little of both

29. Tight or bomb?
..simi lj. bomb wad sia. bomb cb ah.

30. Singer or dancer?
O SO NOW GT SINGAPORE IDOL QUESTION.

31. Stunner?
sven, skeleton king or sand king?

32. Hiphop?
fuck la wad's wif the questions sia.

33. Earrings?
erm yup.

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-you-drop?
NO?

35. Dimples?
ya it would b nice

36. Bookworm?
so so lo

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
can la.

38. Playful?
erm. ok wif it.

39. Flirt?
Refer to #38

40. Poem writer?
u tink dis one wad. age of three kingdoms ah?

41. Serious?
nt everytink of cos.

42. Campus crush?
nt necessary?

43. Painter?
so now wad. finding napfa or la selle talents?

44. Religious?
ok lo.

45. Someone who likes to tease people?
Anything

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
anitink?

47. Speaks 20 languages?
u tink i need a walking dictionary?

48. Loyal or faithful?
both.

49. good kisser?
need skill one ah? lol

50. loves children?
yea kind of.

m i fast forwarding time faster den i tink i m?

cging/acting in progress.

indeed need more baths.

nt the sand flies bite until i horland.

shld b called sick test instead.

i nv wanted a bath so badly.

i nv wanted fresh food so badly.

is finally over. phew.

but i m still itching all over.zzz

i was often reminded.

my strength is my gentle nature and patience

some things tt shld nt b done shall nt b done.

我的生命， 总是一波未平，一波又起。

祸总是不单行的。

我开始绝望了。

或许这只是一场游戏吧。

hi i m drunk,

mayb i lost track of wad is impt to me.

is dis some routine. cb.

every wk i come out.

i lose my fingers on my left hand. sibei irritated wif it.

empty.

yes i haf 4 days.

i tink i will make a long post here.

it feels weird to walk down the street at 12am in the weekdays.

is lyk, i nv take a closer look of the street outside my hse for a long long while.

nv get glared at by dad for a long while, seems lyk i kind of pissed him off dis morning. i m realli ok wad. no fever no bullshit no nth.

things haf changed? or haf i changed?

m i losing myself? changing myself? or finding myself back?

suddenly, there is oso a shortage of ram up there. i feel...lag. which is definitely nt sth gd.

things change so fast outside at quite an alarming rate. for example, the petrol station below my hse lyk jus closed down after my first book out?. everytink on my door is lyk fading?.

my life. a big change?. grinding to a halt? or m i moving on without myself knowing.

so many questions, so little time. i realli need to enjoy my 4 days outside.

field camp is gonna b a bitch i no it.

and for a certain individual out there, she better take gd care of herself if nt she will get it ya haha. =D

4 days mc. song bo.

for nth. =D

but the rt confirm rt until cannot rt. nb.

nxt wk field camp. hope i dun die. =)

I WAN MY FUCKING POP.

后青春期的诗
歌手：五月天

当烟雾随晨光飘散 枕畔的湖已风乾
期待已退化成等待 而我告别了突然
当泪痕勾勒成遗憾
回忆夸饰着伤感 逝水比喻时光荏苒
终於我们不再为了生命狂欢 为爱情狂乱
然而青春彼岸 盛夏正要一天一天一天的灿烂

(阿信口白：然後呢 一起走吧)

谁说不能让我此生唯一自传 如同诗一般
无论多远未来 读来依然一字一句一篇都灿烂
让天空解释着蔚蓝 浮云定义着洁白
落花铺陈一片红色地毯
迎接我们到未来
精彩未完的未来

booking in.

life is mundane inside. boring piece of shit.

but we lan lan haf to serve haf to serve.

pay day nxt book out. gonna get sth for myself i guess.

like father like son.

jus had morning session wif pops.

is funny. when we walk out of the hawker centre

doin the same actions to get the stucked food out from in between the gums

den spitting. ok though is nt sth to b proud of.

and den lastly start swearing when toking.


hmm ya i m out for the 3rd time. preparing to cheer someone up now. shld b productive dis wk.

2nd book out. nt realli productive.

could b better.

i nv realli had chances to look at clouds lo.

do i realli dun haf a lot of time left?

booking in soon. c u all nxt wkend.

the pace outside seems real slow. when i first book out i find tt i was still running around. until the pt of time i stopped myself and tink, i m in mainland le, relax la.

when i was inside, i tink i hardly had time to stare at the clouds or rather some reflection time to go.

i tink i dun lyk fast paced life.

2 wks

2 wks. physically improved, mentally shag and deterioated.

i miss home.

i miss my mum's herbal tea and nagging. i bet she cried x amts of time when i m nt around. ta pai act strong.

i miss morning sessions wif lao pei, wif the xl cock shits he would always say.

i miss my sis and my nephews. My home team supporters.

i miss my buddies. days outside without them is shit.

my hangouts. suddenly every tink seems new.

my mp3 songs. suddenly all the songs i lyk nv hear b4 one sia.

and of cos. ____ who goes *%R&#*(&(&#%( dis 2 wks.

ya i understand.

ok the big star here is goin for a holiday in tekong. wadever it is.

c ya fans in two weeks.

will miss u all muacks muacks. =D

ok 2 more days left.

wish me luck?

to a certain individual.

u no pets nt allowed in arcade?

and i dunno wad kind of shit aura do u carry around.

seriously, it jus sucks to haf u around.

u nt the 瘟神。

today is the 401th post.

ok i didnt no i actually post so much but most of it are rubbish i guess

i came across one phrase.

"shit happens to allow the gd things to b appreciated."

for some one. part of lyrics from 传说

一千次轮回足不足够
一万里漂泊又算什么
这人海辽阔 爱总被磋跎
总该 留一篇传说

enuff smiling u retarded kid.

army in 12 days time.

and ya la ya la.

to those idiots out there. i no u all wan to sing

没有你在我有多烦恼。

nxt time ask me where i m,

i can tell u here. i m in tekong k?

edited:

ya i no, i m popular. u can even check out ah hiong's blog. i tink he's the biggest fan tt deserves the biggest fuck u.

i tink my endurance lvl very high ah lol.

when i m stupid, i m realli stupid

ccb to everytink.

read.

ccb is the word ok.

everytink is still another big fat lie

人是否要失去了，才会懂得珍惜？

edit:

do indians lyk to spam songs. cos my neighbour haf been playing the same song for lyk coming to an hr?

jus rmb one part of lyrics from ai.

"i ask heaven, i ask heaven, can dun come and disturb?"

ok as usual i can start typing abt this. i no i m lyk a star but ok can thx.

eh my tagboard nt the flooded. i CAN REPLY a lot of tags.

thx to.

-Suet Nee ( for treating me to the nice zi char. shall treat u back on ur big day =D )

-Alvin (who took an effort to organize the sentosa trip, dun say is my effort, i didnt realli do much actually and the cake was very nice, though sinful)

-Kang Sheng (for the watch. i dare to sumpa casio is nt cheap lo. but seriously i lyk it. and thx for the dinner treat but u still confirm xl.)

-Shin (for helping me getting things organized and giving me the extra aid tt i need)

-Yu Jun (for being born on the same day and celebrating every yr of somewhere along our birthday. and for hearing me unload some shit haha)

-Qian Hui ( thx for the watch oso. the effort and stuff is being appreciated. =) and ur wish is kind of granted already. )

-Yong Zuan (my rotten buddy tt took time out to meet me for some time even though he was fucking shag lyk a dog)

- Faiz (for sponsoring the bottle of martell, i no i drank most of it =x )

- Wen Xiang (for turning up somewhere or another even though cash is a problem, i appreciate it)

-Zariel (for being so irritating but yet always giving me the ear and the company when i need it. and turning up for the drinking session today)

-Nicholas (fuck u to ur idea, but i do appreciate wad u haf done for me up to date.)

-Ah hiong (for making the whole atmosphere always more interesting? somehow or another? or rather take the effort to cab down even though u went the wrong way.)

-Wan Qi (for hearing some shit whenever i need it and treating me lyk a star. ya thx i no.)

-Jason (for taking the effort to come down even though is rather late. i appreciate the thought)

-Charlene ( my dear sister, i enjoyed ur effort to come down to cck and getting the x amts of money to treat me to Ashtons, bought a huge muffin wif meaningful words and the meaningful sms and the company tt u haf given me at times =D)

-Velvet, wenxuan, Nex, Wei Li, Kenneth Ho, Edeson, Ray and Steven, Sheng Tat, Shan Ming to take the effort to come down for the trip and cut the cake. =D

last but nt least, or rather the most.

-____ - (fill in the blanks pls, =p, thx for the special effort to come down cck and wished me a happy birthday, i was realli touched and it definitely made my day. =DDD and tml i m sure u will make me happier oso haha.)

Thank you people so much, for making me look lyk a star, nt being sarcastic but i realli do mean it.

y does shit keep happening during my last mth.

so many broke ups. so many phone calls. need to get so many ppl back on feet.

i need a runaway, an escape, anitink.

no time left.

happy birthday to me in lyk 48 hrs.

她

不知是否和你一样

你已成为我生命中的一部份

也不知从几何时，

你是乎像魔法师一样，

常常使我的笑容出现。

我只知道此时此刻，

我比任何人都不想失去你。

so over the moon.

i wonder y is it in chinese though.

look hu's stalking XD.

男人女人

男人說謊是為了讓自己好過，而女人說謊是為了讓對方好過。我們選擇欺騙，是為了不想傷害深愛的人。我們不是故意的，只是沒有傷害對方的勇氣，所以才隱藏真正的答案。

i m luffing at an idiot hu dunno wad she wans to blog XD.

HAHA. i tink she wan to go.

http://cdn4.libsyn.com/mb/tmbs-060614-smile_and_speak_good_english.mp3?nvb=20090506153536&nva=20090507154536&t=00ad66a7c21b9f1f372d0

i long time nv hear dis shit LOL.

李圣杰 - 擦肩而过
好歌收藏 放飞心情

我爱着谁
爱到我有点醉
告诉我你是谁
能够把我让我变不对
你不会累
但我却爱你爱得好累
从没有为了谁
不顾安危 付出一切
站在这平衡点
我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见
只能够靠感觉
他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说 我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过

SERIOUSLY. IS UPSTAIRS PLAYING SOME PRANKS WIF ME.

nb pua cb.

i m having mood swings and i hate it.

lost. jus lost.

y do i keep smiling to myself. i m so goin to get muscle cramps soon.

damn, very very sam pat.

ALL YOUR FAULT LA. XD.

I M NO PRESIDENT.

NOR SOME FILTHY RICH MILLIONAIRE.

DUN HAF TO STALK ME ONE, LYK GO ASKING WHERE M I.

WAN TO GO OUT, U CANT B EXPECTING ME TO MAKE THE DECISIONS FOR U RIGHT?

DECIDE TIME AND PLACE ONLI WAD.

AND I M NO BIG STAR. DUN NEED TO CHASE ME ONE.

PLS LEH, I M GOIN IN ARMY LIAO HOW BOUT NXT TIME U ASK ME OUT I TELL U I M IN CAMP?

I M VERY HOMELY ONE I DUN MIND STAYING HOME ALL DAY ONE.

LAST MTH ALREIDI, HOW BOUT ASKING ME STH DIFF INSTEAD OF ASKING ME THE SAME QUESTION ALL THE TIME.

i m doin things as though i m goin to die. seriously i dunno y.

i learnt or rather it could b i m still learning to appreciate the things around me more.

lyk mum, i m goin to her work place more frequently nt bcos her workplace is near mine but jus wan to c her lo. c wad she is doin, to hold the family and wad she is doin to support the somehow worthless son of hers. Dun luff but i tink i m getting her a gift on mother's day probably the " 意难忘" cd or sth. i haven bought her gifts for lyk in yrs.

Dad onli said one tink, no more playing liao ah. man liao hor.

try reminding me tt i m goin to shoulder the responsibility of supporting the whole family.

and, m i trying too hard to please everybody?.